What’s wrong with me … ?

I have been taking care of others since I can remember.

In high school I did first aid classes … hospital volunteering. Then I got married and raised two children … helped with grandchildren … worked as a nursing assistant in a hospital, 27 years … did home care … volunteer in EMS, fire … took care of grandparents … and both my husbands’ parents and my parents. I have also helped some neighbors.

I enjoyed doing it all. But … my mom was the last to die two years ago … and I feel lost … empty. It just seems to being hitting me now.

What am I good at except being a caretaker. I’m trying to learn from others … church … friends, etc., but there seems to be something inside me that just hurts … and I can’t seem to figure out … thank you. ♥